Thank you for all your comments and messages re my friend Peter. He  died last week after a 2 and a half year fight against cancer. His funeral was yesterday, it was truly beautiful, the service, the prescence, the sacredness that surrounded his death.

His wife wrote a beautiful poem in which she asked that Peters life be a lesson to all of us to live fully as he had done. There were tears ,yes, but there was so much love and reverance for him and for the life that we have now.

Goodbye Peter, you touched and inspired me more than i can say, bless you dear brother.

Just being with what is,
is the most peaceful thing I know.
It should be written on the back of milk cartons
cos cows already know it.
Its only humans who fight this one.
The most intelligent species on earth?
Thats the best joke ive heard for a while!
and i bet Gods cracking up!

Todays the day that i stopped being what the world wanted and became what i am.
Todays the day that the curtain came down once and for all.
Todays been a beautiful day, truly truly beautiful,
My only wish is for everyone to have a day like today.

I have spent  today with one of my closest  friends who is dying. Peter has been living with an inoperable brain tumor for the past 2 years. He is 53 years old with 4 young children and a beautiful wife. Until recently he had fought this illness and tried many ways of curing himself. He has been around the world searching for a cure and through this process of insight and healing he has become much more surrendered to life.

Recently however the illness has worsened and he has been forced to deepen the surrendering process and to accept what is going on inside him. Since Thursday he has been unable to eat or drink anything and has had an intravenous morphine drip to manage the pain.

Sitting with him during these last few weeks has been an experience I will never forget. Until today he has been able to communicate with me in slight whispers, eye contact and squeezing my hand. These have been shared and very sacred times together. Two human beings in connection without any masks, without any distractions, without any 'thing'. Just being in that space with him, with no-'thing' going on. Today he was unable to communicate at all so i mostly sat and held his hand, whispering some words from time to time, and telling him that i loved him and how important he had been in my life.

So why i am sharing this i wonder? Im not sure of that other than i hope it may help anyone else in a similar situation. Through this process I have also really seen how so many of the things that we do, worry about, and spend so much of our lives involved with are of very little consequence unless we are connected to source. 

I dont mean to deny these things, but to see them for what they are, is to never lose sight of the really important things in our life. Spending this time with Peter has been difficult and very sad, but there is also an incredible teaching that has come out of it for all of us who have known and loved the man.

If his last moments can bring such clarity and insight to those around him, then what a beautiful gift he will leave us with as we all travel our own life paths and come to that place of deep peace and surrender in ourselves. There seems no more worthy and fulfilled life than for one whom can say that.

Bless you all. 

what does the heart say?

I will be going to New Zealand shortly on a 6 month pilgramage, to experience the beautiful nature and stillness that so many people who have been speak about, and to spend time just 'being' in that energy.

finally finally finally, allowing and following the wisdom of the heart, trusting that sweetest of inner voices, the God within, aahhhh........how beautiful.

 

Football Focus will come and go

This day will come and go

What will be left to show at the end of today?

What will be left at the end of your life?

Each day is like a life.

It comes, seems so important, then passes

What happened yesterday doesn't seem so important now

What happens in your life isn't that important

The only important thing

Is finding the source of your life

That's what you come from, go to, and will always be

That one life, beyond all the myriad forms of life

That inner space is you

That's God after all

Buy you've probably got more important things to do today.

 

Thank God for that!

The struggle is over.

The striving, fighting, trying, competing....

It has all stopped.

And what is left?

Just God

A deep peace and reverence for this moment.

How beautiful!

Mmmmm.

 

I just laugh (by Kabir)

If I told you the truth about God, you might think I was an idiot.

If I lied to you about the Beautiful One you might parade me through the streets shouting "This Guy is a genius!"

This world has its pants on backwards.

Most carry their values and knowledge in a jug that has a big hole in it.

Thus having a clear grasp of the situation if I am asked anything these days

I just laugh!